| Sorry i haven't written in this for so long. |
|
|
| 11:19am 11/03/2005 |
| |
I've been having a kinda mad time at the moment, its all been happening.
Me and Josh have finally decided to meet up IRL and I have been planning that, getting my passport ready and saving my money, my brother is still 'at large' and will not be returning to the house, so i am moving into his room, I have already bought my new bed and I am looking for a second hand sofa. I have told my parents that i am going on a road trip to europe when i go to see josh, i know that i shouldn't lie to them but i know that they would freak out if they knew i was meeting up with someone off the internet, especailly cause hes american!
I can't understand why my dad hates americans Sooooo much, sure i can see why people hate Pres.Bush, but not all americans. |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| |
|
|
| 02:47pm 12/01/2005 |
| |
Mysticwicks has been banned and i have been thrown into a world that hates me, out of one that was safe, soon i feel I shall lose all of them and hate it, i have so many friends there and I feel like Im gonna cry! |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| |
|
|
| 10:27am 06/12/2004 |
| |
My step mom and i were talking last night and we talking about my real mom(who i hate for reasons i'd rather not go into right now) and my stepmom said that she thought i was old enough to know that my auntie(my real moms 'sister') was my granma. Unfortunatly my auntie died 2 years ago and i didn't say good bye because I was living with my dad and my real moms side of the family didn't tell us until she had been dead and buried 3 months!
Its all really mad and shocking and on top of that my brother has moved out for good and the woman who is looking after him (his mates mom) has applied for child benifit which has really upset my mom and dad cause they thought that he might come back home!
__________________ |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| Who am i? |
|
|
| 11:44am 30/11/2004 |
| |
mood:  crazy music: Seplutura
|
I wear all black and love pierceings and tattoos, but i'm not a goth.
I like spikes and concerts and wierd colored hair, but i'm not a punk.
I like hip-hop, but i'm not a ghetto wannabe.
I'm in love with a wonderful person, but i'm not a sap.
I make love to him, but i'm not a slut.
I like girls too, but i'm not a lesbo, homo, or faggot.
I like computers and video games, but i'm not a geek.
I cry and hurt, but i am not weak.
I fight for things i belive in, but i am not tough.
So what am i?
I am me, and thats all i am. |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| |
|
|
| 10:04am 26/11/2004 |
| |
Would anyone notice if i just faded away and disappeared....I found out that lots of people don't like me....some I thought did....YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!I will still be nice and still be there for them but truthfully i just want to die..i hate my life and all that it entails! |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| **giggles** |
|
|
| 01:24pm 24/11/2004 |
| |
|
mood: creative music: Mushroom head
|
I know a secret....yeppy yep yep yes i do!
The dark is taking over, i can feel its grasp,
Take this life away from please so let me come to pass
Away from all i love and hate
I want to leave but its too late |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| Heres something i nicked from Avalon! |
|
|
| 02:01am 19/11/2004 |
| |
mood:  bouncy music: Drowning Pool
|
1. Tell me one thing you like/love about me.
2. Tell me two things you love about yourself.
3. Do this in your journal so I can tell you what I love about YOU - and if you've already done it, tell me so, so that I can go back and give you some love. |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| Nicked from *Faker* |
|
|
| 06:24pm 17/11/2004 |
| |
Would you..
() go out with me?
() give me your number?
() have sex with me?
() let me kiss you?
() watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
() let me take you out to dinner?
() drive me somewhere/anywhere?
() take a shower with me?
() be my gf/bf?
() have a fling with me?
() listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
() buy me a drink if i didnt have money?
() take me home for the night?
() would you let me sleep in your bed?
() sing car kareoke w/ me?
() sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
() re-post this for me to answer your questions?
() let me give you a piggyback ride?
() come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere? |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| Feels like something! |
|
|
| 03:06pm 17/11/2004 |
| |
mood: bouncy music: Alanis
|
Josh......I feel as much for you as you do for me!Forever and always babe!
I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it
You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was
CHORUS:
You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault
Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service
You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience
You're the best listener that I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long
I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| |
|
|
| 07:10pm 15/11/2004 |
| |
mood:  angry music: Korn....duh!
|
A song for the guy that is ment for me but is out of reach!
Freak on a Leash
Something takes a part of me.
Something lost and never seen.
Everytime I start to believe,
Something's raped and taken from me... from me.
Life's got to always be messing with me. (You wanna see the light)
Can't they chill and let me be free? (So do I)
Can't I take away all this pain. (You wanna see the light)
I try to every night, all in vain... in vain.
Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
You'll never see me fall from grace
Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap fuck for me to lay
Something takes a part of me.
Feeling like a freak on a leash. (You wanna see the light)
Feeling like I have no release. (So do I)
How many times have I felt diseased? (You wanna see the light)
Nothing in my life is free... is free
Chorus
Boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
GO! something on the
So...fight! something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
So...something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
Fight...something of the...
No...some things they fight
Fight...something of the...
Fight...some things they fight
Chorus
Part of me...
Oh... |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| What the hell is going on....... |
|
|
| 02:29pm 11/11/2004 |
| |
I feel like i am just existing rather than LIVING maybe its me but my life seems to be speeding by and i can't stop it!BAH! FUCK IT! |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| Thanks Steph! |
|
|
| 11:29am 10/11/2004 |
| |
| How to make a Solice_in_song |
Ingredients:
1 part jealousy
1 part brilliance
5 parts instinct |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little fitness if desired! |
|
|
| |
|
|
| |
| Shhhhhhhh.... |
|
|
| 11:20am 10/11/2004 |
| |
mood:  amused music: Fever for the Flava- Hot Action Cop
|
As i am writing this the guy that i have fancied for ages is sitting near me!I shall not reveal his name as it is a secret and will go with me to my grave! |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| **Growls** |
|
|
| 12:05pm 09/11/2004 |
| |
mood:  blah music: Money- Pink Floydd
|
JUst took my second maths exam and im quite sure that i have failed again...if i have what am i gonna do??I have to go to uni if i don't im screwed!!!
I'll write again later when I have more time.... |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| Really do I have stress symptoms! |
|
|
| 01:47pm 08/11/2004 |
| |
mood: bitchy music: Word Up- Korn
|
I don't feel stressed but i have all the symptoms, I have got ezma again and I keep getting head aches!Grrrr! and theres this guy who keeps saying hes suicidal to me.....yeah right, hes in 'love' with me supposedly and 'needs' me!We have never been involved!How can he need me if hes never had me????
He needs to grow up! |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| Just on eye! |
|
|
| 11:33am 05/11/2004 |
| |
mood: bouncy
|
Well i believe that i might have just failed my maths for the 3rd time...that gotta be some kind of record.....Ahwell alls well that ends well!I'm actually pretty stoned right now...i seem to have been in that state for around 2 weeks and I have to say..its not bad..not bad at all!
Well until next time amigos! |
|
| |
|
|
| |
| |
|
|
| 03:46pm 03/11/2004 |
| |
this is only a journal, this is only a test |
|
| |
|
|
| |
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
solice_in_song's journal